Do you feel like you are going Crazy?

It has been a difficult year for most of us. You have changed you are not the same person that you were a year ago. When we go through a life changing event there is a point that we feel like we are going crazy. This is natural, it is the time that we are processing the most and our minds are having a hard time keeping up.
There are two parts to the process, the first is the part where we are looking at our lives and our surroundings. Our eyes are opening and see details and patterns that have changed within us. How we have changed. You also may be seeing relationships differently and things in your life in a whole new light. You are seeing things with fresh eyes.

You might notice that you are more relaxed in certain areas of your life or not so overwhelmed. You may also notice that you don’t want to go out as much as you use to or vise versa. Whatever it is for you that you see has changed for you. You can look at these areas of your life and notice what you decide to keep doing and what you decide needs to change. Its best to do this in a gentle light hearted way. When you do this in a way that is fun such as thinking wow look at this I am not as uptight or stressed about this it will flow easier. This is not a time to go deep and fully analyze but a time to notice and decide what to keep doing and what not to.
The second part is the allowing process. This is where there needs to be space to allow what has happened to be processed. Not only by our brain but also our heart and our energy. You may find that you are more tired than usual and you just want to relax. This may feel like the opposite of what you should be doing since you can now get together with people you missed. Listen to your body, if it wants to rest and you want to binge watch tv or read ect then do it. Allow the process to occur. If we fight it that’s when things seem to be out of control.
This second part of the allowing is like baking a cake, you already did the hard work, you put all the ingredients together and now the cake is in the oven baking. You need to allow it time to bake and not poke at it or stare it down willing it to be done faster.

Both parts of the process happen simultaneously one day you might be experiencing one part and the next the other. You may even experience both in the same day. Its processing, its working its way through your life.
When I came back from the Middle East, I had a rough year in the military. I was very fortunate that I was in a safe place but it was still a hard year for me. When I came home I went through this process and it was not easy, I did feel like I was going crazy. It seemed that being home was as difficult as being over there. This doesn’t make sense to our brains, but our bodies and our souls know its a time for processing.
Give yourself all the space you need, listen to what you desire and go for it. Even if it seems counter intuitive after what you have been through this past year. Allow for the process to take place.